Had a bit of a panic attack this weekend. Its started because I have a print I've had since I was a little girl. It is very age warn and the paper is so dry it's splitting. So one of my projects this weekend was to have this picture laminated.
Anyway when I took it out of the plastic rods it was hanging in it split a bit and then Staples said that they could laminate it BUT if the paper was heat sensitive I could run the risk of loosing the whole picture. All of a sudden I think this made me feel very insecure about the prospect of saying goodbye to a lot of my possessions. The idea of choosing a car load of 'things' and parting with the rest actually makes my stomach turn. Its stupid, I know, they are just things. I was talking to my Spanish teacher today about it, as she gave up her job as a lawyer and moved from Barcelona to America to teach and to write a novel. She says you don't even remember those things when you've gone, and of course having moved from Newcastle to Leeds and then England to New York, I know this to be true. I also went out for dinner with Jeff and Michele last night and Sue on Friday and that made me melancholy about loosing friends. BUT then I have not really seen Michele since November when we went to Mexico together and Sue for over a year. I'll probably see those people just as much when I leave. I suppose the print has childhood connections and when it tore and I'm told nothing can be done to preserve it I guess it feels very invasive. Well I have been trying to reason all of this out. The magnet on my fridge says 'leap and the net will appear'. I only wish you could see the net before you leaped and perhaps wear a safety harness:)
Spanish is going quite well. I'm getting better at conjugating my verbs and am now talking in past tense (with a little careful planning before I launch into my sentences). I don't think I will make it into future tense before I leave to Mexico, but I can always fall back on 'voy a' (I'm going to).
This trip to Mexico is actually very fortunate timing. It will give me the opportunity to thoroughly get a feel for whether this is what I want to do and catching up with Hans and Allie (and grilling them about their new lifestyle) will be great.
Looking forward to April 10. Only 2 weekends to go...